I would like to think that despite RJ being away, I would still get up for my morning devotions but the truth is I probably would be trying to steal every chance at sleep I could get, thinking that with him gone I deserved it. Isn't it funny how often during the times we most need time devoted to prayer and scripture, we often don't do it? And so, these last few days though I may grumble at being woken so early, I have realized that this quiet time has so helped me to get through my day with the proper focus.
I also have appreciated the the Office of Morning Prayer from the BCP on these early mornings. Like an old friend, it gently leads me through all that I should pray for and the scripture I need for that day. Today it was the Collect for the Renewal of Life that encouraged, challenged, and convicted me, since a renewal of energy and life was what I needed:
O God, the King eternal, whose light divides the day from the
night and turns the shadow of death into the morning: Drive
far from us all wrong desires, incline our hearts to keep your
law, and guide our feet into the way of peace; that, having
done your will with cheerfulness while it was day, we may,
when night comes, rejoice to give you thanks; through Jesus
Christ our Lord. Amen.
As I sat in my old green chair watching the light dividing the day from the night, I prayed this prayer. Oh, that today, He will remove the wrong desires I have and my hearts inclination for my own path and give me a day of peace and cheerfulness. Even in the moment when I was looking forward to the night coming so I could go back to sleep, I was led to rejoice and give thanks.