But it is then that a change begins to take place in the service as Schmemann
Little by little we begin to understand, or rather to feel, that this
sadness is indeed "bright," that a mysterious transformation is about to take
place in us. It is as if we were reaching a place to which the noises and the
fuss of life, of the street, of all that which usually fills our days and even
nights, have no access--a place where they have no power. All that which seemed
so tremendously important to us as to fill our mind, that state of anxiety which
has virtually become our second nature, disappear somewhere and we begin to feel
free, light and happy. It is not the noisy and superficial happiness which comes
and goes twenty times a day and is so fragile and fugitive; it is a deep
happiness which comes not from a single and particular reason but from our sould
having in the words of Dostoevsky, touches "another world."
This touch from another world is from a loving Father who has promised that "If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness" (I John 1:8,9). Though Lent is journey and often a hard one, the end of the road is sure: we are ever being led from the Cross to the Grave to the Resurrection. "A deep happiness" indeed!